February 2012
4 posts
December 2011
2 posts
thank you friend
i was at a bar one time with friends.. some form of celebration im sure…birthday..graduation..Hanukkah..whatever it was..we were drinking and having a good time..a drunk time at that.. and this friend said..”man missy..youre a hella good writer.. i like your stuff on Tumblr.. but your shit is just too depressing! i cant read it..i cant read it man..but youre good.. youre a good...
November 2010
1 post
in time of sadness..
it seems I only come back to this when sadness hits the heart..
and when we aren’t together and I know u love me..I fall apart..
its hard..I wonder where u are..if you’re far..and everything reminds me of you..
what am I to do..I still love you..
August 2010
1 post
exposed..
now that we’ve exposed the wound..
we can see what kind of damage has been done..
its sadly obvious that its painful and while looking at the post trauma..
the recovery time looks long..
but with dedication, passion, and drive..the recovery road will be endurable..
there will be days where you dont want to get up and deal with the fact that youre hurt..
and there will be days where all...
July 2010
1 post
decisions..
the decision is clear when youre standing outside of the box
but when youre inside and the heart is invested, your dead locked..
this confinement of thought leaves you vulnerable in every way..
and even if you know the proper decision, you still choose to stay..
and this division of heart and mind starts to become unclear
and you cant justify whats real and you start to live in fear
fear of...
May 2010
3 posts
i miss you.
i miss you most at night.
during the day im alright.
but when i get home and youre not there
im quickly reminded that no one else can compare
to your touch and the warmth of your kiss
your love is what i truly miss.
so i try my best to close you from my mind
i try not to let my heart play rewind
to bring me back to those missed days
i tell myself this is all a phase
because if you cant...
Watchi never told you.
self reality..
here it is.. no rhymes tonight… just self reality…
the reality is this….what you felt then.. pure magic right? every touch every feeling every unspoken word was…heaven..you cant even find words to cumulative everything thats going on in your mind.. when it feels like your heart mind and soul are synced into one.. and you begin to live on this high..this drug of...
April 2010
1 post
change.
the dynamics have changed
we are no longer in the game
and what weve become
we are no longer one..
when we say hello.. goodbye comes too soon
trying to keep alive this faint soft tune
because there’s love there, i know this for sure
but right now its hard to find the answer, to find a cure
our hearts beat with frustration and endless confusion
everyday trying to come to just a...
March 2010
4 posts
perseverance.
per·se·ver·ance
AC_FL_RunContent = 0;/ˌpɜrsəˈvɪərəns/ Show Spelled[pur-suh-veer-uhns]
–noun1. steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., esp. in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement. 2. Theology. continuance in a state of grace to the end, leading to eternal salvation.
15 yes' 1 no.
YES..i still think about you.
YES..i still care about you.
YES..i still want you in every part of my life.
YES..i never stop thinking about us and what future we can have.
YES..i love your anal-ness/OCD.
YES..you can always beat me in basketball.
YES..i do play basketball slightly funny.
YES..ill fold your clothes and clean your house..because i actually like to.
YES..ill always push the...
different.
its sad we cant see eye to eye
and soon we will be sharing the same line.
im not so conventional like you
im sorry that im different and cant do what you do.
we were so close and i felt i could tell you it all
but now that we disagree you dont even call.
not to say hello or that you miss me or how are you?
nothing in return, not reciprocated, leaving me with thoughts of doom.
you make me...
“::You can never find the right person if you can never let go of the wrong. But...”
February 2010
5 posts
you you you and you...
dear you…i stopped thinking about you. for a long time i thought i loved you more than anyone. as much as i wanted to keep our friendship and always tried running back to you, it felt nothing was really reciprocated. i was always your big secret. the truth is.. others know. the truth is i did love you. and the truth is im finally over you. i can finally feel like i can breathe. because i am...
and the more that im into you i cant help but feel whats true and tho im scared of uncertainty i pray that itll be you and me but im tryin not to tell you but i want to.. im scared what you will say so im hiding.. all im feeeling tired of holding this inside my head
trying.
trying to remain in the fight
trying to remain in the light
trying to just give it my very all
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trying to stick to my plan
trying to give it all that i can
trying not to fall
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trying to keep my head up...
Falling
i wanna tell you baby you’re the one that im thinking of but your heart is still with her and I think she’s the one that you love i only want you happy even if it’s not with me maybe one day you’ll open up your eyes and you’ll see that I think im falling maybe I’m falling for you yeah I think Im falling baby Im falling for you from the first time you...
unexpected
you came out of no where. i wasnt ready. i wasnt prepared.
i didnt know my heart could feel again. it still felt broken and bare.
and when i wasnt expecting to have love find me so soon..
there you were in red, you caught my eye, someone new.
and like a thief in the night you stole every bit of my heart.
and im telling you now, i was blinded from the very start.
the way you moved, the way...
September 2009
2 posts
pain is pain..
a struggle is a struggle and pain is pain.. whether you white black straight or gay.. sorrow is felt whoever you are.. so dont judge pain as if it only pierces certain hearts.. our adversities may not be the same from you and i.. but when pain hits..its like suicide.. engaged in the feeling of mix emotions captivated by the inside commotions decision decisions collisions collisions pain...
back to basics..
lets get back to basics and get grounded again..
August 2009
4 posts
heart to me..
right now its just you and me..
and nothing else can set you free.
not even the mind can make you feel complete..
just me and this constant beat..
dont you dare give in or give up..
even though i konw you had enough..
but trust me i know whats best..
even if it feels like youre leaving out all the rest.
just give it time and you will see..
that these patient beats will give all that you...
still forever.heart on sleeve.
not giving up but giving time.
for you to adjust and get ready for another climb.
ill still live my life and catch every wave..
but just know that my mind will always come back to what you gave..
and more over of what you offered of who you are..
because these days..simplicity and realness seems so far..
...
torn....
because im guilty of always…
“Sometimes we move so fast we pass right by the opportunities we seek.”
July 2009
12 posts
random rhyme..flip it and reverse it..
stuck. stranded. and clamped down to the past of then.
uncontrolled. paranoid. finding it hard to fill this void.
lost. confused. dont know why i lose.
up then down. then down then up. these feelings are a little corrupt.
strong and weak. tryin to make these feelings obsolete.
trapped in the past. trapped in my mind. trapped from these memories i find.
coming like a strong wave. coming out...
Geminis Twin...
“You may go through a period of self-doubt today as the New Moon Eclipse falls in your 2nd House of Values. Reconsider what’s most important to you, but don’t dismiss the needs of a partner or others in your family. Even if you aren’t particularly happy right now, don’t look to blame anyone else. Just make whatever adjustments you can and then move on. Things could...
“TIME WILL BE YOUR GOOD FRIEND…”
– sara t. quach
finding ONESELF...
lifes rough. im on the hunt. for a better me.myself.i
a better life.with meaning and just.
a better understanding of why im here.
and to where i go next.
on the path. on the walk. on the run.
traveling..
my Fortress....
enough said……red much? yes…
Goodnight world…you did me well today..
let the uprising begin..im ready for more..
to You...and also..You...
I gave you my heart.I gave you my soul.I gave everything that I had.But ya left me in the cold.But still I have faith.Somehow I believe.That if I keep love in my heart.It will find it’s way to me.I could fight.Seek revenge.But thats not who I am.No I’m not giving in.I will rise above.I’m gonna keep walking.Though it may seem far.I’m gonna keep preaching.When life gets too...
My every MORNING..
welcome to my every MORNING….
when the sun begins to rise..and the birds start to sing their song..i find haven and sweet bliss in this beautiful calm dawn..where the breathe is deep and the heart slow with beat..no worry..no saddness.. or maddness can compete..for this is my every morning..my true living moment..this is where i lay to find the ultimate atonement. i rise with...
GOOD night....
i cant go to bed without expressing this feeling..and i truly think that God works in mysterious ways.. for as hellish as my day went..it thankfully turned into a GOOD night..
i dont know where my heart is leading..but right now…i like it..and that is enough for me..
and now…
GOOD MORNING WORLD!
Realization..
its funny when you actually come to the realization that YOU are not alone.. and with the help of common conversation you find this commonality between you and another..this bond is formed and connection is made..
WELCOME TO THE CLUB….
im in the club :]
Ultreya-To Go FORWARD....
we always move on to bigger and better things.. a noun we never thought we’d reach.. and just when we think we have plateaued..something pushes us to ULTREYA..
when youre down…
you can only go UP….
GOOD MORNING WORLD!
“KEEP ON TRUCKIN”
– (Kuya) Jeff Cruz
SUCKS..
i didnt get the seattle job..LAME LAME LAME!
June 2009
2 posts
THAAAAARA
zaras telling me a story.. muahaha..while we drink mango papaya pineapple home made smoothies..we are bums.. because i made her skip class this morning! muahahaha to SLEEP MORE! im thinking about ***** …because i totally had a dream about *** last night..im in love with a stripper..
and now thara is plucking her eye-brows.. serious business!!!
and now ive plucked my eye-brows…nicely...
“.nothing can be done against the truth no matter how we remain in denial.”
– lauryn hill